STORM BREAKING

waiting for the rain to fall
watching the wind blow the leaves down
mood shifts left to right
sun filtered through the clouds
and i fall into
i fall into the season
wondering watching waiting
for this to explode
for this to drown it all away
driving down the road
letting the wheel go where it wants to
hoping i will find
the place i ache for
the place i long to be
in this mood shifting
in this world spinning
in this time that flies by
how it flies by
it flies by
waiting for the clouds to break open
watching for the thunder to begin
emotions swell around
leaves struggling in the wind
to find a place to land
to find a place to end their descent
waiting watching hoping
and let the storm break
and let the rain lash
and let the heart break
break open break down
break into the pieces held together for so long
so long waiting
so long watching
so long hoping
for spring to break again

IT IS I

do you not believe Me?
I will never leave you
nor forsake you
do you not yet comprehend
it is I who upholds you
did I not choose you
did I not call you              
I will keep you safe
I will keep you period
it is I
not the things of the world
not your family
not your treasures
not what you hold dear
it is I the Lord your God
I will I AM I AM He
do you not believe
do you not comprehend
why do you grieve
for what is meant to pass
I shake the foundations of your world
will you not trust Me?
will you not cry out to Me?
will you not seek Me?
I am your God
what can separate you from My love?
not even death not even life
come unto Me rest My children
come and see come and know
it is I the Lord who upholds you

CONFESSION

trying to tie this up
wanting to move on without dealing with
the very reason i am here
i confess i repent i will say anything
just to get this sin off my back
how i ache with regrets
how i ache with sorrow
how i wish i had never gone to
the well of pleasure and lust
trying to get this over with
wanting to feel that fellowship again
but can i
oh can i
when i won't sit still long enough
to hear Your voice Lord
to hear Your voice again
i confess i repent i will say anything
just get this sickness out of my bones
i am pressed down
i am overwhelmed
i am tired
i am spent
yet i still want it my way Lord
help me save me cleanse me
as only You can
as only You can
i confess i repent i will say anything
just to be able to hear You again
speak to me Lord
guide me Holy Spirit
revive me Father
i am weary of me
i confess i repent i have sinned against Thee

The Fathers Desire and Love

let My word flow in you
let My truth be held close
let My love be accepted
I am love accept the love I have for you
why do you question My love
do you not consider what I have created worthy of My love?
do you not see yourself as I do?
take My love live in it
give My love as I love you
it is not of you
you are not capable of it
it is a fruit of the Spirit
as He guides you as He leads you
submit to Him
is My love so burdensome to you?
is My word too much to believe?
oh My child My child
do you not yearn for My peace?
tell Me what you desire
tell Me what you fear
do you not know how much I desire to speak with you?
do you know how much I want My love to be known to you?