too lazy to stop
too self aware to care
i want what i want
even though i know
i need not go there
too lazy to ask
too filled with flesh
enticing me away
oh that i would pluck out these eyes
oh that i would cut off these offending hands
oh that i would
i could if i really wanted to
too lazy to cry out
too busy comforting myself
even though i know
it will only bring misery
sin beckons with its promises
taking care not to tell the result
flesh softly begs me
take your fill of me
take your fill of death
it does not say
but i know oh i know
too lazy to say no
too easy to say yes
too much to turn
too hard to face the truth
no comfort
no promises
no light
no comfort
no satisfaction
no oh no yet i know
oh how i know
yet i go over
crossing that line
one more time
Angel Barreto
i can try to hide my surrender
in a cloak of defeat
but i know i have a victory
in this death of me
i can grieve the loss of something
i once held up as an idol
but i know that truth be told
You Lord are what i desire
why do i fight so hard
trying to get both ways
clinging to the things i want
reaching for the riches i have in Christ
oh my Lord You know
this heart grieves over
all i lose in gaining You
oh my Lord You know
this heart rejoices in
all that You are to me
i can try to hide my surrender
in a cloak of defeat
but i know i have a victory
in this death of me
fear springs up like weeds
masking sin like needs
why is it so easy
in making it hard
oh my Lord
this is why You bring me here
wrestling with myself
wrestling with You
yet i know the victory
i have in You
Angel Barreto
