SAVE ME SOMEHOW

i woke up to the sound of crying
with no one here in this house
but me
i turned over in the tears
wanting to cry out
grieving in my grieving You Lord
living in my working this salvation out
i walked into the goodbyes
not intending to really go
with no intention of leaving
i turned away from You
i said i confessed
wanting to be cleansed
from this static of sin
this habit of comforting myself
my way again
in my way again
i can't and i don't
i try and i fail
i want and i desire
the flesh and the Spirit
these hands betray me
these eyes hurt from running
these tears burn from falling
into the pillow of my sleep
i woke to the sound of mourning
with no solution to be dreamt
but i know today will be different  somehow
if i would let You save me somehow
if i could trust You somehow
You will save me somehow

Angel Barreto

HOME AGAIN

here within these walls
i walk and i sleep
here in the midst of your memories
i live and i breath
in the home my mother raised me
in the place i yearned to be free from
how i wanted to run from
i find myself living
i find myself praying
for understanding
for Your peace Lord
for Your comfort
in my grief
in my soul
in my living
day to night to day again
this getting used to this world without you
here within this yard
i water and i prune
here in the midst of beauty
i ponder the loneliness and presence of you of me
in the house of my mother
a child has come home to grieve
here within the heartache
i know you are in His glory
as i am home again
as i learn to live again
here with these walls
here within His peace

Angel Barreto