JUST

I turn my eyes away from the scene
Didn’t feel anything
Just done
Just finished
No not a thing
And I didn’t even cry
At what was done
I didn’t even try to stop
I just wanted enough
I didn’t even make an effort
To turn away from the sin
Entangling me
Betrayal should not be so easy
Where are the bitter tears
Where is the fear
Of a Holy God
Is it enough to just believe
I got up from the scene of the crime
Washed my hands of it
Said my prayers like a good child
Whispered my goodnight
And closed my eyes
And I closed my eyes
Where is my confession
Where is my regret
No I didn’t even think to
Just made my rebellion complete
Just sealed in the sin
To dream in
To dream in
I turned my heart to no
Couldn’t even hear Your voice
In the hardness of the stone
I just wanted me to be
In charge of everything
And I didn’t even cry
At the thought of grieving You
And I didn’t even turn
At the moment I could have
I just wanted to be in control
Of this train wreck


Angel Barreto